Friday, July 10, 2009
I seriously can't take it anymore, finally, I did what I wished I could last night.
Didn't feel better as I thought I would, but felt worst.
Yet I am telling myself that I could have cried longer,
after all, it blurred my vision for a moment.

I bottled everything, because I don't want to appear as weak. But I know deep inside me, I am.
&there is a need for me to stay strong.

I longed to see your smile, a real smile.
Yet I only see it after so long,
not from anywhere, from others' blog.
I wanted a pat,
saying nothing will go wrong and everything's gonna be fine.
Yet?
I feel abandoned.

Have been feeling giddy frequently recently, kept seeing things around me rotating; that I even banged on the wall while walking hours ago. That is at home. I can't imagine if that is on the road. Sometimes I'm so afraid because I felt as if I'm going to faint anytime. Yet such things mostly happen when I'm alone. Even if I'm not, I'd choose to shut up and talk nothing about it. No point worrying over unnecessary/unimportant matters.
Probably I should consult a doctor? I'll think over it :/

Half-dead. Will continue with project work.
& FYI, just incase I blog less often in future, I still read the tags everyday. Bye the world.

Kelvin: Nope, I've made serious decision. Not to slap him :X
Evelyn: Yea, try. Thanks.
Racer: For?
Melissa: When I'm alive and when there's time.
Alan: Racer's my friend. And try, no promise.
ClementTay: Okay.
Jane: Thanks. Your message motivated when we were talking the other day. It different this time round.
XinYi: Thanks for that.
Felix: There's no smile but there's no frown.
Vinni: Thanks for that. &Melody wishes to be the strong Melody in your eyes again.



,MELODY @ 11:38 PM