Monday, June 21, 2010
Time to give up, my dear Melody Sim.
Spam projects, and nothing else.
That is all I can think of. Also, time to learn to control the warm droplets of water that roll down my cheeks usually. Worst come to worst, pooh shall be wet again. Yes, without anyone knowing, again.
I feel like spamming all that are in my brain into this blog post. But I can't. and I don't have the courage to.
I find myself damn useless. Perhaps I should just sit and reflect.
Just feel like giving up; I'm feeling damn awful.
I shall just surrender to fate and be your little doll once again.
,MELODY @ 9:31 PM
Spam projects, and nothing else.
That is all I can think of. Also, time to learn to control the warm droplets of water that roll down my cheeks usually. Worst come to worst, pooh shall be wet again. Yes, without anyone knowing, again.
I feel like spamming all that are in my brain into this blog post. But I can't. and I don't have the courage to.
I find myself damn useless. Perhaps I should just sit and reflect.
Just feel like giving up; I'm feeling damn awful.
I shall just surrender to fate and be your little doll once again.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Am I wrong to put you as the limelight of my life?
Slept at 4plus AM yesterday, waking up at 9plus AM again, and now I'm not sure what time I'll sleep and wake up later on again.
Waiting for dear to text me while doing tto field trip and uploading pictures at the same time. Yes I'm extremely tired, with aches all over and eyes closing soon. Yet? Argh.
Frustrated. But there's nothing I can do. Fuck.
"Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option"
It has happened already, just that I've never been willing to face up the truth.
,MELODY @ 12:12 AM
Slept at 4plus AM yesterday, waking up at 9plus AM again, and now I'm not sure what time I'll sleep and wake up later on again.
Waiting for dear to text me while doing tto field trip and uploading pictures at the same time. Yes I'm extremely tired, with aches all over and eyes closing soon. Yet? Argh.
Frustrated. But there's nothing I can do. Fuck.
"Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option"
It has happened already, just that I've never been willing to face up the truth.
Friday, June 11, 2010
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Almost 2am and I'm not sleeping yet. Yes have been losing sleep for a particular reason but more added on to it tonight. And I don't feel well; gastric worked up, frequent headaches and bad flu is seriously killing me. I'm going to die of exhausation, really soon.
Will I ever be the limelight of your life?
p.s. replying tags on tagboard unless too many tags, which usually don't happen.
,MELODY @ 1:44 AM
Will I ever be the limelight of your life?
p.s. replying tags on tagboard unless too many tags, which usually don't happen.
Friday, June 4, 2010
What is love?
The dictionary tells me love is a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person;
then I googled the word, wiki tells me love is any of a number of emotions related to a sense of strong affection and attachment (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Love).
Still, it doesn't tell me what it is. I'm in a state of confusion.
Went out in the late noon to search for books, while waiting for dear to end work, then dinner.
Sometimes I don't know what or how I should react to certain things, especially after we had a quarrel. Sometimes I just feel that I should act like how any other girls would, just being wilful and not understand a single thing and how I just want my way through everything.
However, at the thought of this, the angel in me tells me I should be understanding to everything and whatever you do and to just give in to all that you say or do. But doing this makes me unhappy.
And this can keep my mind occupied up to days. Especially when you're not around.
Perhaps you didn't realised. My eyes were on you throughout the whole dinner. Yes I seem dumb doing that. I was upset about you not even speaking a single word, not even knowing someone was staring at you stupidly. Then one question pop out, "When will it be the next time this will happen again?"
However, when we're on board the bus, I knew the reason to it ...
Despite being tired after a long day, despite without the need to even spend some time with me for dinner after work when you usually go back straight, you came to meet me without complaints, today, just to make up for tomorrow's blown off date. Yes despite the fact that it is because of the blown off date that you met me today, but still, I appreciate it.
The devil within me tells me not to think much about it as it is just something you're doing to appease me. Yet the angel tells me that at least you took the little effort to do it. So now, what should I do? Who should I believe in?
It is the first time I'm blogging to openly about you. I've thought about it, its selfish of me to keep what I think to myself and not let you know when I expect you to do something. Its selfish of me to keep thinking about what I think without even consulting about what you think. You may say I didn't do that, but still, its something that repeatedly came across my mind when I reflected on myself the other day.
Its time for me to change;
and its time for me to grow up a little more for the sake of you.
I love you dear ♥
,MELODY @ 11:00 PM
The dictionary tells me love is a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person;
then I googled the word, wiki tells me love is any of a number of emotions related to a sense of strong affection and attachment (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Love).
Still, it doesn't tell me what it is. I'm in a state of confusion.
Went out in the late noon to search for books, while waiting for dear to end work, then dinner.
Sometimes I don't know what or how I should react to certain things, especially after we had a quarrel. Sometimes I just feel that I should act like how any other girls would, just being wilful and not understand a single thing and how I just want my way through everything.
However, at the thought of this, the angel in me tells me I should be understanding to everything and whatever you do and to just give in to all that you say or do. But doing this makes me unhappy.
And this can keep my mind occupied up to days. Especially when you're not around.
Perhaps you didn't realised. My eyes were on you throughout the whole dinner. Yes I seem dumb doing that. I was upset about you not even speaking a single word, not even knowing someone was staring at you stupidly. Then one question pop out, "When will it be the next time this will happen again?"
However, when we're on board the bus, I knew the reason to it ...
Despite being tired after a long day, despite without the need to even spend some time with me for dinner after work when you usually go back straight, you came to meet me without complaints, today, just to make up for tomorrow's blown off date. Yes despite the fact that it is because of the blown off date that you met me today, but still, I appreciate it.
The devil within me tells me not to think much about it as it is just something you're doing to appease me. Yet the angel tells me that at least you took the little effort to do it. So now, what should I do? Who should I believe in?
It is the first time I'm blogging to openly about you. I've thought about it, its selfish of me to keep what I think to myself and not let you know when I expect you to do something. Its selfish of me to keep thinking about what I think without even consulting about what you think. You may say I didn't do that, but still, its something that repeatedly came across my mind when I reflected on myself the other day.
Its time for me to change;
and its time for me to grow up a little more for the sake of you.
I love you dear ♥
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
See our super cui faces? Its all swimming's fault, HAHAHAH :D
Its been long since I last went into a pool, and its even longer since the last time I even exercise! And yes, swimming for a little while makes me feel super tired. Plus swimming in the morning is worst, you'll feel dead by late noon. Ok, I'm weak :X But it feels good though (Y)
Yellowhouseboy, let's go for swimming again kay! (:
Ok gonna get my butt moving this june. I hope :P
Tomorrow's accounting paper. And I've studied for four days straight for this one hour paper tomorrow, which consist of only two questions. But well, at least I've tried my best to study :D
Well I think my eyes are shutting reallllllll soon! Ok Joshua better call earlier. I'm dying of exhaustation! :P
And YEAH! I'm gonna work for F1. Luckily Joshua changed his mind suddenly! (:
Mark: Well, difficult. But I'll try. Thanks :D
Vinni: (Y) You too kay! (:
Steph: Sure Sure! Will link you :D See you tomorrow and all the best for accounting! (: