Thursday, December 31, 2009
58 more minutes to 2010
GoodBye 2009, Hello 2010~


Dug out my 2009 resolutions and realised I've not completed them. Just wrote out my 2010 resolutions, and I swear I'm gonna follow them.

My reflection for 2009.

The year started off with work at Andresen's. From there, I learnt many things. I learnt how to handle difficult customers, how to handle ridiculous requests from customers but yet to still hold my temper and still smile, and most importantly, how difficult it is to earn money.

The hardest thing in the year should be the time when I just entered TP. It was tough to make friends, since I don't talk to strangers. Yet, it is these strangers who made my life wonderful - Choon Sze, Si Pei, Clement, Andre, Alan, Bryan; in fact, the whole 1H07. I started school with the thinking - Die, I'm so gonna be alone for the next 3years. Never did I know that I will make such a great bunch of friends. Especially Choon Sze & Si Pei, they're the greatest friends I made in TP. Thank god I met them! (:

Didn't manage to continue being in Salvo but despite that, seniors and friends I made are great. It was then that I realised, they're not just Hi-Bye friends whom you meet during CCA times but it is when you encounter problems, they will still lend you a helping hand, even after you've left.

It was then another time to experience of making new friends while working for Asri during F1. Despite working like crazy, it was the first time I experienced fun while working. I admit it was a good experience, I learnt how difficult it is to hold trays the whole day and despite the pain and tiredness on your feet, you have to continue working but yet smile and enjoy. Indeed, it was a challenge to me. And it was during the event, that I made a a group of fun and outgoing friends! (:

Events in 2009 made me a newer, stronger and better person. I have learnt, seen what I will not see if I were to choose a different path, experience a life which not everyone have the chance to. am glad, and still thankful that god gave me things after taking away some. Like what others always says, When god closes your door, he will open a window for you. And finally, I realised, losing is not the worst thing to happen on earth.

And to you - Thank you for being there always, to help and stuff. I'm seriously glad I met you. You gave me a new starting point at almost the end of 2009, and lit my days from only school to more. Thank you (:
to scram, seriously. i
Melissa: LOL I'm not surprised btw -.-
Nic: Thank you! Hahahah, and it was a good time criticising her! (:

dearie, once again, thank you for appearing in my life. seriously, i am really really glad to have met you. the kind of thankfulness deep down in my heart cannot be expressed via words. and don't have to thank me for stuff, my job here is to continue loving you and being there for you. like my promise to you on 30th december 2009, 10.21pm, i'll always be there for you when you need me, no matter what, no matter who else objects. and to add on to that promise, i'll love you till the day you ask me to scram, i
love you <3



,MELODY @ 11:02 PM
Supposedly to post before 12am but anyway I'm here. Four great things to share!

1. Got my pub speak results for both impromptu and special occasion speeches! And I got an A! Ok despite being a low A, but still, its my first A in TP! And results shows that my preference - impromptu, is the one I can do better in!
2. Got back my OB mid-sem paper and YESYESYES another A!
3. I bought my little pooh bear! LINGNA & ANDRE - YES the one with pi gu yi li yi li - inside joke! (:
4. BCS tutorial tomorrow morning from 9 to 12 is cancelled! Like WOHOO I got no sch on Thurs and Fri! (:

I think today's damn lucky! Like all I wish it will happen happened! And I thought I was in dreams! But ya I'm awake and alive! Ok but now that both modules score not bad so far, I'm afraid for Micro and Socio and of course the rest.

Anyway either staying home or just going to return books tomorrow since I've got nothing on! (: But except for chores though.

Alright someone turned 18th today. Happy Birthday! (:

ChinHui: Oh its normal just get used to it and it'll be fine, what you working as?
Vinni: Sure my dear! Same to you (:

dearie there's no need to thank me kay. i swore to myself saying i am going to make you happy today and yup i did it right? and no need to apologise for the movie, we had a great day still isn't it? and same thing goes for me, spending time with you is the best thing on earth already! i love you too <3



,MELODY @ 12:13 AM
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Went to see doctor this morning and I queued for 2 hours before I saw the doctor! Was damn tired and was almost falling asleep. Anyway I made it to school alive after that. &Thanks for accompanying to the doctor! (:

Micro tut for only 7 mins and I was like -.- Should have made used of my MC and skipped Micro as well. Anyway I got my articles checked and stuff.

&I've decided to complete all my work on Thurs and Fri. Yup, hopefully.

Reached home around 8plus and I was starving! And yup, I'm super tired now. Seriously shag.

Nic: Cause you're slow la DUH! Shows that you should drop by more often (:

dearie thanks for accompanying me to the doctor. and i'm sorry to spend your whole morning for nothing. but still, thank you! <3



,MELODY @ 10:43 PM
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Mum flew today, for work again. Wanted to send her off, but had diarrhoea the moment I woke up again. And she asked me to stay home.

Diarrhoea three times today already. Hope there's no fourth. Cause had six times in total last night after blogging.

Finally I've watched Singapore Dreaming for Socio, gonna do my part tonight if I can or else will do it tomorrow. And school reopens on Monday -.-

Alan: LOL -.-

thanks my dear. for the medication, for letting me see you, and those words you said online just minutes ago. frankly, your words triggered my tears, but it was cause i was really touched. i guess i better count my lucky stars, to have met you, that is the best thing in life that could happen to me. i love you.



,MELODY @ 10:50 PM
Friday, December 25, 2009
Merry Christmas!

The day didn't started well, at least for me ):

Had seafood for dinner last night, which was Christmas eve. Didn't ate a lot since I don't really eat seafood. And I had diarrhoea the moment I reach home. And once more just before I slept.

Decided to bfast with family outside this morning so I woke up like 8plus. Had diarrhoea once the moment woke up. A really bad one. Four times in total until now since the day started.

Think I might as well spend my Christmas in toilet ):

Anyway I'm quite done with whatever I have to do. Left with one neglected subject, Sociology. Ok not really neglected but since its not as rush as the rest, I've not done anything to it. I've promised myself to do whatever I have to do before school starts. Which means I'll have to do Sociology by this weekend.

Mum's flying off tomorrow noon, and will only be back on the 1st. Seriously, I don't feel good without mummy around! Ok perhaps I won't come home early after school starts. Even studying in the library is much better. Ok that will be my plan if I've got no plans.

And I got my Lollipop cap already! And got one WANGZI fan! Will take pictures of it soonnnnn~

Is my blog neglected? no tags after days -.-

you never know how much i missed you



,MELODY @ 11:48 PM
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Best day ever (:

Went ECP and Clarke Quay for proj - to take vids. Lunched, shopped around at Central and went Hougang after that.

Its the bestdaybestdaybestday! Like seriously, I have no regrets even if I die now :P

I always have this thinking since young. When something good/someone cared for me, something bad will bound to happen within the next few hours/days. And yup it happened something good last week, then something bad last weekend, and now good. But no matter what is going to happen the next few days, I don't mind cause I had my best day in life already! Yes I'm that easily satisfied (:

Alan: LOL, lame -.-
Racer: Nah nothing much.
Xueshen: Yup don't worry darling! (:
Jingxuan: Sure! (:

dearie. thanks for accompanying me here and there when you could have been staying at home and rest. and of course, for letting me see you after so many days! cause i missed you like crazy! and, thanks for your little surprises today - the necklace, mitten and of course, my lollipop. not forgetting, the special something which made me surprised. thank you so much! it was the first time that i looked at someone for such a long time that my vision went blur, but i really enjoyed it. &it was the first time someone put on a necklace for me - so i will not take it off. &you're the best thing i could ask for as well. i love you~



,MELODY @ 12:18 AM
Sunday, December 20, 2009
什么是家?

在我眼里, 家, 应该是个可以依靠, 一个不管发生什么事, 门都会为你而开, 一个不管风吹雨打, 都会成为你最温暖的避风港...
但对我而言, 是个恶梦, 是个有苦说不出, 是个被瞧不起, 是个最不想呆着的地方...

曾经在很小的时候, 我告诉过自己, 长大后, 我一定要不顾一切的离开这里...
后来上了中学, 曾以为是自己幼稚不懂事, 有一度觉得有家真好... 但, 现在的我, 要坚持当初小时候的第一个梦想 - 不顾一切的离开

几十岁的人了, 这绝对不是叛逆期, 是决心...

我不是个有自信心的人, 是个能因为别人的一句话, 自信心就全垮的人...
也是个能因为别人的一句话, 就会被影响的人... 或许表面看不出, 但心里被影响得乱七八糟...
但不管怎样, 只要是人, 就一定有自尊心...
虽然说, 我是在你又打又骂又被瞧不起的环境成长, 应该已经被你影响得差不多了... 但不知为何, 我还是会很想大声哭出来...

我真的累了...

Stretching rubber band too tight results it to snap.
What's the point of holding it when you know it has been trying to escape? Let it go.



,MELODY @ 8:15 PM
Saturday, December 19, 2009
YES I AM BRAINLESS.

IF GIVEN A CHANCE, I'LL DEFINITELY RUN - RIGHT NOW, RIGHT THIS MINUTE.
F.



,MELODY @ 4:27 PM
Friday, December 18, 2009
Back to blogging. Ok seems like after some time but not, only a day.

Went doctor for my becoming from bad to worst skin, and yup, everything is due to inflammation. And I've to be on medication and to apply some cream. No late nights anymore! ):

And I've gotten used to my bangs, like yup. (: Although I still prefer my previous fringe!

Alright. Someone's at camp now. Ok I gonna sleep, Good Night all! (:

WeeTing: Don't want luh, not very nice actually.

dearie go ahead and enjoy your camp alright? probably this is a lit too late but don't worry about me alright? i'll stay and be fine. miss you <3



,MELODY @ 11:19 PM
CUT BANGS ALREADY!

Ok that is all over my twitter and fb. And yup, plus I've shorten my hair, like almost 4 inch! Been whining the whole day already cause I'm not used to bangs (although I've cut it before) plus my hair is so short now! Ok not really but its A LOT to me luh!

Will find a way to manage my hair so I won't look weird.

Anyway, I've somehow gotten used already! A little :P

Racer: I've cut already anyway.
Kelvin: Yup, cut it already! And yup, it WILL grow back (:

dearie, thanks for the comforts today. don't worry about me kay? i'm pretty alright now. just need some time to get used. love youuu <3



,MELODY @ 1:34 AM
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Should I cut bangs? Should I cut bangs? Should I cut bangs? Should I cut bangs? Should I cut bangs?

Ok I really don't know thats why I'm posting it here. Feel like cutting but I'm afraid I'll regret. HOW?!?!?!?!?! And now if I have the mood to go Hougang tomo I'll cut bangs. Or else I'll have to wait till this Fri or weekend or next week.

Supposedly to be doing Go Kart for proj but it turn out to be a wasted trip. Lakeside somemore! Wasted time + money! ):

Met up with Ying Jun cause she happened to be at lakeside too! &since she was alone. Went for lunch at PS and shopped around. Saw so many things that I wanted! OMG but since I've declared I'm broke, there is only share to see but not buy )':

Photobucket

Awww. I wanna go shopping!

Alan: Ya I know.
Nic: FINE -.- Shopping is tempting knowww.

my dear, remember your promise to me alright? i really dislike it when you keep everything to yourself and don't wanna let me know if you're upset or frustrated just because you don't want me to worry. frankly, this will make me worry even more, which may lead to me, feeling frustrated. i really hate it when someone lie to me - no matter what.
i knew i sound as if i can interrogating you, and i'm seriously sorry about it. i knew i was wrong when i did it, cause i know i have no right to interfere your stuff, but i really want to share your bruden...
i'm sorry my dear, and i love you <3



,MELODY @ 11:35 PM
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Mum flew to Brunei yesterday while Dad and Sis went Malacca this morning. And Grandma went Aunt's place to stay. So yup, I'm left all alone. Anyway, Dad and Sis should be coming back tonight.

Went AMK Hub to search for stuffs, lunched and back home. Ok not my stuffs though. Ok at least my eyes went shopping, LOL.

Should be staying home tomorrow as well since Mum will only be back on Monday. Plus I'm not to type who goes out with my Dad and Sis. So yup.

Have been watching youtube till morning and I think I should whack this stupid habit/addiction of mine cause my skin condition is seriously getting from bad to worst ): Should make myself sleep earlier from day to day.

I realised I'm officially broke. Ok was broke since some time ago, but this time round I meant business. One reason, my phone bill came already! ): I guess I've to make my own sandwiches from now on until I get my Jan allowance. Or else I'll just survive on air.

Anyway I think I should start with my serious stuffs, as in like projects and some studying preferably. I hope.

And LOLLIPOP is having their concert in Guangzhou tonight! Hope its successful and I'm seriously waiting for them to come Singapore. Though I heard Singapore is the 7th stop, but their only at their 2nd stop now!
Ahhhhh come Singapore please! :/

Joshua: Yupyup, I stripped Pooh. You knew what I meant already anyway (:
Racer: Ya I won't liaoooo :X

Thanks my dear, for all you did today.
Lunch and coming over plus dinner. You made my day by accompanying and being there with me the whole day. &thanks for that peck, though it really shock me.
loveyouloveyouloveyouloveyouloveyouloveyou! <3



,MELODY @ 10:16 PM
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Alright back to blogging after three four five six days.

I'm officially on hols since 6pm yesterday. Went Tamp1 for dinner with Lingna and went shopping. Ahhh I went shopping again! Yes, spent money. Got myself a dress and shawl. Same colour and design for both with Lingna, LOL. But the dress was really gorgeous!

And now I'm super broke! Yes, SUPER. I think I'll survive on water and air from now on. Please refrain me from spending! ):

Home today to settle project stuffs. And I received Asri's text asking if we wanna work this hols. Been thinking over it, and I think I won't work. Despite being super broke, I think its better to spend more time on my proj and stuffs.

Anyway I have my own room now! Ok not really cause its practically just moving my bed over to study room. But at least I'm sleeping alone now! (:

Alan: Yup, 25bucks for 1000pieces.
Jasper: 16blocks was alright, I cleared about 20blocks the next day at toa payoh!
Lingna: Yupyup! Was a good exercise though.
Xueshen: Yup I know, now. Won't do it anymore :P

Thanks for accompanying me to study on Tuesday, plus breakfast and dinner.
And after not seeing you for few days, I really miss you.
Wait till your hols is here then we go out kayyyyy!
I miss you, I really do <3



,MELODY @ 10:59 PM
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Perhaps I should use to time to sleep instead of blogging, but sis ain't back yet. So I'm thinking of waiting for her.

Anyway, I think my choice of job is really from bad to worst!

First was ice cream for aound 5 months. Which the pay is super low, but yet super slack during work that I was really bored to tears!
Next was restaurant and banquet for a day. Which I think F&B is really dirty cause you'll have to clear tables and its damn disgusting, esp the way people eat!
Followed by F1. Which was damn tiring and my leg was on the verge of breaking. Although this is the one I enjoyed most (:
Then it was giving out flyers for a travel agency. Despite being tired cause the flyers were damn heavy and there wasn't break time except lunch & dinner, and I've got to bear with the cold eyes of the people there. Yet I find it alright cause the pay was reasonable with the amount of work and there was YAMI YOGURT after work! <3
And it was events outside (RWS and APEC). Which is about the same as F1, but not as tiring. And since it was still under Asri, it was fun anyway.
And now, its today's - giving out flyers on door-to-door basis. Which is super saikang! Worst than all of the above and have all the negative points of above! Except the part on dirty for F&B cause its flyers. Super low pay + Got to walk/run in the rain and the worst was, to be scared by dogs!

Yes I was in such a pathetic state! Perspiring, yet drenched in rain. Imagine how smelly I was! And to add on to that, my hair was in a mess and makeup was smudge. Imagine taking 3000 pieces of flyers in the bag and another 1000 in arms and walk down blocks after blocks, in the rain somemore!

I think I'll rather scoop ice cream, or even working fo Asri, or giving out flyers for travel agency.
Today's the worst, and I'm seriously not going to take up such jobs. Yes, read this - NEVER.

And now my shoulder is aching like nobody's business and my left wrist is hurting again. And legs are damn tired due to the non-stop walking.

Yet there is nothing positive about the job. Ok probably only one point, and that is, I can lose weight super fast. Cause I covered like 16 blocks in total. And they are all separate into different locations, but all in potong pasir though. And I think I've walked the whole PTPS area, like seriously! Imagine we're doing Toa Payoh tomorrow!

Anyway, I really wanna thank Joshua. For coming down and carrying the 3k pieces of flyers. I know how heavy it was after carrying for hours. And walking up and down with me just now, and not forgetting helping me from time to time. Really, a big thank you to you!

And my timetable is left with,
Micro on 7 Dec and OB on 9 Dec (:

Nic: Yupyup can! Jio me out luh! (:

To my dearest boyf. I seriously thank you for today. Like I said, I don't know how to express my gratitude to you cause you've been the only one who cared so much. I really feel so lucky that I've met you. And don't worry about me tomorrow alright, I'll be fine. Love you! <3



,MELODY @ 12:53 AM