Sunday, March 7, 2010
Good morning world!
Its about five more minutes before I prepare for work. And like usual, I'm super exhausted. But what to do? Money is not easy to earn and, it is my only way of officially not staying at home without the need to give explanations, since J is on attachment already. So I might as well find something else to do. But anyway, I'm only working till the 25th cause trans is starting on 26th.
Given some thought to certain things ever since some things changed. Like seriously, I should and I must wake up my idea of not wishing nor hoping. And after a week of changes, I realised the truth out of everything, wishes never come true. And the more you wish for it, the higher your hopes, you fall harder. So due to me being afraid of falling, I decided not to wish, neither will I expect anymore.
Ending work at 11pm while I start at 7am tomorrow. F.Y.I. I'm working at Sentosa. I think I should just sleep there right! I think its a better choice and I won't have to rush here and there! Oh well, just hope I survive.
Racer: Nope, its not inconvenient nor stressful. After all, that few little minutes mean a lot to me. So I seriously don't mind going great lengths for it.
Xueshen: Thanks darling! (:
Nic: Thanks! Don't worry, I'm fine now. Trying to ignore everything that make me unhappy.
Eve: Yup, I am doing it now already. Block out all unhappiness.
dear, to you, i may have grown. but seriously, sometimes i don't. at this point in time, i still hide myself in the blanket and cry whenever i miss you. just like what little girls do when they miss their boyfriends late at night, yes i still do that. but what can i do? i can't possibly tell you how much i miss you and to force you to meet me when you can't right? so don't blame yourself alright. you didn't force me to grow, the environment did. all i just want for is for you to dote on me more each day, just like what i told you a day before you start your attachment. and last but not least, i love you ♥
,MELODY @ 11:43 AM
Its about five more minutes before I prepare for work. And like usual, I'm super exhausted. But what to do? Money is not easy to earn and, it is my only way of officially not staying at home without the need to give explanations, since J is on attachment already. So I might as well find something else to do. But anyway, I'm only working till the 25th cause trans is starting on 26th.
Given some thought to certain things ever since some things changed. Like seriously, I should and I must wake up my idea of not wishing nor hoping. And after a week of changes, I realised the truth out of everything, wishes never come true. And the more you wish for it, the higher your hopes, you fall harder. So due to me being afraid of falling, I decided not to wish, neither will I expect anymore.
Ending work at 11pm while I start at 7am tomorrow. F.Y.I. I'm working at Sentosa. I think I should just sleep there right! I think its a better choice and I won't have to rush here and there! Oh well, just hope I survive.
Racer: Nope, its not inconvenient nor stressful. After all, that few little minutes mean a lot to me. So I seriously don't mind going great lengths for it.
Xueshen: Thanks darling! (:
Nic: Thanks! Don't worry, I'm fine now. Trying to ignore everything that make me unhappy.
Eve: Yup, I am doing it now already. Block out all unhappiness.
dear, to you, i may have grown. but seriously, sometimes i don't. at this point in time, i still hide myself in the blanket and cry whenever i miss you. just like what little girls do when they miss their boyfriends late at night, yes i still do that. but what can i do? i can't possibly tell you how much i miss you and to force you to meet me when you can't right? so don't blame yourself alright. you didn't force me to grow, the environment did. all i just want for is for you to dote on me more each day, just like what i told you a day before you start your attachment. and last but not least, i love you ♥